Before coming to China I got a lot of good advice from many different people. I asked lots of questions and got many helpful ideas, but what has stuck with me the most is a comment from one of the experienced teachers at my orientation in Shanghai. When asked how he was so successful and happy in China, he replied, "I said yes to everything." I have taken that as the unofficial motto of my time in China. Whether it's a last minute trip with a friend, an event at school, or my own impulse, I have tried to say yes, to jump in and see what happens. Some of my best memories from China have been times when I said yes even when the easy and reasonable answer was no.
So a few weeks ago when a teacher asked me if I would sing "My Heart Will Go On" with some of my students, I said yes without really thinking about it. My plan was to sing very quietly and let the ten students carry the song. Little did I guess that my first agreement would escalate until I was standing on the stage with only my friend and co-teacher Miss Liu.
I usually never know much about what goes on at my school. I just go where I'm told, and things often change without my knowledge and with little warning. So I shouldn't have been surprised when I was informed that I would be singing with Miss Liu and not the students. But I was surprised, and as those of you who know me might assume, I was terrified at the thought. Miss Liu and I agreed to alternate verses and sing the chorus together.
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Our hosts for the concert. These are all my students, but they were wearing so much make-up that it was actually difficult for me to recognize some of them. |
The concert, in honor of Children's Day which is June 1, was recorded live with the sixth grade as the audience, and it was played to the rest of the school on Wednesday. The preparations for the concert began right after lunch, as all of the children in all of the acts needed full make-up, even the boys. The art teachers also helped Miss Liu and me with our make-up.
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Make-up time |
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Miss Liu |
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Miss Liu and some of our students. |
After we were all made-up and costumed, we trooped upstairs to the auditorium. Our performance was towards the end of the program, so we sat in the back and watched the other performances. My students are seriously talented. Every Tuesday and Thursday they take dance, music, and art lessons, and they've been preparing these performances all semester. Even though I knew that all of my students were more talented than me, watching their performances made me less nervous and I even started to enjoy myself.
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Waiting for the performances to start |
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First graders' dance |
When it was finally our turn, I felt ready. I walked out to the center of the stage. My legs and hands were shaking, but my voice was steady. The audience was full of strange and hostile sixth graders (or so it seemed to me, since I don't teach them and wasn't expecting the same kind of adoration I'd get from my own students), but when I finished singing the first verse I got a rousing round of applause. Miss Liu joined me on stage and the rest of the song went smoothly. Even though I had spent the whole morning feeling anxious and even angry about having to sing, during the actual performance it was really fun. I'm really glad I said yes because my Children's Day performance is one of my best memories in China.